i have finally completed my assignment essay, but then got presentation next week got two actually and one of them i am presenting second, and then my other one i am presenting first, which kind of piss me off, because i had a choice whether to go first nor not, but i was in a i don't care mood so i accepted it T_T

Anyways, i am meant to be raging so here i go, as i mention from my previous blog that i was going to a friends 18th, anyways i need a lift and all that crap, but i do not really know how i can get there because mum starts work at about 5 or maybe early, anyways, i text my friend and asked her if i can come a little bit early she said that she doesn't really know what is happening so then told me to go an hour later i told her sure... why not, pft then i told mum, she literally did not answer which really pissed me off, i had to reply my friend so i repeated what i said again, and she goes,' yeah i heard what you said you do not need to repeat yourself' WTF she did not answer me and gets pissed of at me, she always do that to me! she has no time management, always disorganised, this is probably where i got those talents as well, and probably why i failed half of my freakin school life, being disorganised and not knowing time management! anyway I asked her what time, ha all she can say was erm i am not sure about that maybe around this time and that time?? uh.. what the hell is this time or that time, i swear she must have got the basic learning skills and that is learning how to read the stupid clock! ha then she goes with another idea, oh what about this you can go to the party half an hour late, and you could have dinner at work then i can send you there! ha she is pretty smart, finding a way to get herself out of work, as soon as she can! and what i am not going to let her ruin my fun, i get there late, within 2 hours i get a phone call from her screaming,' i am coming to pick you up now! because i have work tomorrow and i am tired at the moment so i need my sleep so be ready this time [which means i will be standing near the door wait for half an hour for her to arrive even though we live so close] so Christ sakes, she always ruin my fun. she never go to work on time always half an hour to forty five minutes late, makes an excuse like i had to clean the house blah blah blah which she doesn't all she does is clean those two dishes from my brother and sisters breakfast, she takes half an hour in the bathroom every morning! then she leaves at like 2 or 2:30 to pick my brother and sister up, goes home sleeps until 5 to 5 then goes to work, she comes home at 9 then complains how tiring her day was god damn it she does nothing at work, we have literally hired a guy at the back of the kitchen to help out with the orders, all she does is take in the orders and deliver it. she does everything in slow slow motion, takes her time, like on Saturday mornings she tires to be hard working gets up at freaking 6:30 dragging me up with her as well go to the stupid vegetable markets, and she like drags her feet while she walks to grab the vegetables she needs, then comes back and complain how so many people go or either that there was no vegetables today, literally i do not give a damn about it! we go home, i have to cook breakfast for her, i don't mind it, but at times i just really can not be bothered to go through the whole process of cleaning up all the mess for her! anyway there again she goes for her sleep until it is about quarter to nine then we leave the house and yet we are late again! she does some of the vegetable chopping, a small bunch of celery like about4 to 5 bunch, can actually take her 3 hours just to cut them up seriously. and she tries and create all these weird foods, and preparing dinner also takes many hours to prepare lets say more 3 hours as well! WHAT THE HELL it is only feeding 5 people, and all 5 of us do not eat a lot, then it is time to go home for a nap, oh yeah and now since my oldest daughter is hard working i think i will leave at lets say 2 then will not come back until 6 or maybe 6:30 if i feel like it! and then for the rest of the night she decides to read magazines, ha i ask her why are you reading magazines, sometimes i get tired because i only get an hour to sit down, or maybe not even and hour if people decide to have dinner at 3! anyway she makes a remark oh well i need to read these, its my relaxing time! er what ever i am pretty sure she just had like a 4 hour break and those magazines are not important because it is just seeing what is on special! then another break come around 8, i literally have to set her dinner out and then when i do and she decided to go to the toilet[ okay the meaning of toilet is not a normal term for us you see when mum goes to the toilet that means walking halfway, she goes and talk to the cleaners, for lets say 5 to 10 minutes, okay then he gets pissed, then moves my mum then continues to walk towards the toilet then starts chatting to one the the tenants for about 20 minutes to half an hour goes to the toilet then comes back but makes a stop at the same tenant shop she was talking to before have talk again for say about 15 minutes then makes her way back][sorry it sounds like stalking but it makes you wonder how can a trip to a toilet take so long especially if you only need to piss!] she sits down and eats and then complains, this food is cold, did you reheat this? blah blah, i am pretty sure i did, but you just decided to make everything cold, then at nights when she is back from work , she knows that she is tired and that the next day is going to be hard for her if she does not get her rest! but she does not care, she goes and watch television until 12 + then the next morning starts complaining about her aches!
there is so much more i can just rage about, it just annoys me why can she not just be a responsible mother, who organises herself, knows what she is doing each day at what time and keep her mobile phone with her at all times, literally when you need to call her desperately, it is never with her someday i am going to have a serious accident and then when i need to reach her ha, i will not be able to and then before she knows it she will be blaming herself and regretting so many things!

But on the good sides of me, today i went to a cafe to buy my friend pepsi as a b'day present [ u only get it if you were there at that moment] anyways, i remember giving the guy a ten dollar note, because the can only costed two dollars, anyway he looked at me and started a conversation and started to ask me questions like, are you Singaporean or or Malaysian something like that, i told him no and then said to him that my uncle used to own this cafe, he ask a few questions then gave me my change and left, i walked out of the cafe was near the coffee shop kind of far away, the change was still in my hand because i was trying to but that can in my bag hopping it will not explode or make my books all soaked, got near the bus station was putting my chain back into my purse but then only realising that the man had give me fifty two dollars change, oh my god i was like a little girl at a candy store i was happy, probably because it was quiet a lot of money to receive especially when you just gave someone ten dollars hoping the return of eight dollars back. then i called mum and told her about it, she said i should give it back, but i was not going to walk all the way back because my mum had just arrived and i am not going to miss that bus and wait half an hour for the next one to arrive, so i told her she laughed and said lets talk about it when you get home, we shall think of ways to spend it. In our tradition if you receive wrong change[a greater amount like in my case] or picked up money from the floor, you should think of ways to spend it, little bit or all of it, but just a way of spending it because it kind of symbolise as stealing i do not know how but it is bad luck. i was just jumping happy all the way home, 1st of all would be i have never receive wrong change from anyone, but i have given out the wrong change and since it is first time man that is a huge amount. not even my parents would give me fifty dollars that casually! since i have been having a bad day that was actually the only thing that cheered me up so i am pretty happy about it =]

anyway it is getting late and tomorrow is Saturday, so guess what! i am heading to the vegetable markets bright and early, hope you all get a good sleep in =]
Kayan