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2011-07-20T22:30:00.004+08:00

There you can hear it. Time has flown. Believe or not i might possibly be turning 21, So the post below with all the I's are things i should have half fulfilled. Sorry to break it to you, but i don't think i have changed much over the past few years pretty much the same.

But instead of rants, i think i might just turn this blog around and make it positive as much as possible.
So last weekend i went on a YFC camp. I must say i was never a fan of god/Jesus. I always thought that it was a silly cult, where people praise this one man, who believes to have performed many miracles. I ask my self why do people preach to him so much? why would people start crying when they sing songs about this man?. He was so BC years ago, people who are living today have not even seen him in person so how can you put so much faith, love and trust in this non existing person.

I was brought up in a catholic school, i was taught a lot about god. I was told stories and miracles that happened and that were performed. Recently in the past year or so i have only started to gain interest in this religion. I started to attend church functions, events, masses. I must say as a so called beginner i've seen some stuff that are pretty confronting but yet in a way i feel quiet comfortable with. So the camp YFC i went to last weekend, was about finding yourself with Jesus. Getting to know more of your own relationship with jesus and god. The content of the retreat was pretty much the same as the last retreat i attended last year but just not as intense.

The most silly thing was that i went to the retreat with a pretty negative attitude. 1st of all, my best friend going to be there! That's the whole retreat fun gone. 2nd of all. without best friend i have no guide as to what to do.

So started off with bed arrangements when i arrived with a few other friends. There was this policy where all the girls stayed in one room and the boy's all stayed in one room. but definition of one room of girls was more like 19 girls crammed in a small room. That itself i was liking also the fact that my bed was near the door. Way to start off the camp with me and my crappy attitude and now the bedroom thing.

Then we had group activities. They ask questions like, who is jesus to you?, how do you see jesus as? when has he helped you/ felt his presence?. Questions like this to me is something i just can't answer. Not trying to use excuses or anything, but i don't really believe in miracles. so therefore i don't believe in jesus being there to protect us. One of the members was telling us a story how her house nearly burnt down, but she said she felt gods presence when she had the courage to put out the fire. Using the knowledge i payed for, the first thing that comes to my mind is ' the reason you had the courage to put out the fire was because of your negative feedback response "fight or flight"situation' How on earth can jesus have anything to do with this?. But then i guess everyone see things in a different way. So then it came to my turn, i had no idea as to how i was going to respond to this. It's not because i don't believe in him, i do but just not in a way where i think he can perform something where i could be saved or helped.
Yet that discussion made me uncomfortable, and uneasy.

Was then later into the camp where i started to change my point of view. Did you know music is a really good way to speak to people? a really good way to express something?.
We ended up doing quiet a lot of praising during the last 2 days of camp. At first i didn't like it, but it slowly got to me. The lyrics are so meaningful, and the tune itself is nice.

3 days of quietness with no television or supposedly no internet (i couldn't resist i went on facebook) but coming home i felt very content. pretty much emotionless. not much laughter, 1 probs because i was tired. I had this song stuck in my head - hero by Erique iglesias and To the end of the earth by hillsong (mainly this song) i've been singing this song for 3 days straight, and i'm not sick of it. My heart and head has been so quiet that i didn't really notice it until i watched a movie on tuesday night. After watching the movie i can feel the old me coming back my brain was getting worked up all again. BUt this was something i wanted to change. I didn't really like the person i used to be. I wasn't really a considerate person, i didn't really think before i talked. i guess i would have hurted a lot of people. and that bad mouth of mine needs a lot of soap to wash it clean. The first thing i did was play To the ends of the earth on my ipod, and there i was back in my place. i was more calm. i think positive, i wasn't so angry at the things i was before.

I guess at camp somethings just happen to you without you knowing but in a good way. With such a beautiful nature background spending 3 days away from the city is very head clearing. It gives you a lot of time to think, a lot of time to make friendship but most of all get to know yourself more and to think about all the bad habits that might be hurting the people around you.
I think i can live like that for a while... i do hope i keep up what i am doing now and don't give up.
Oh and to say i think i might just have started to fall in love with jesus? i know i was against all this, i'm pretty much eating up my words now. it's hard to describe but when i listen to the songs my heart just beats a little bit more faster . . ..

Today

2009-10-19T21:16:00.004+08:00

Today we start with the most selfish word I. . .

I. . . can't wait until i turn 21 so i can buy my new house
I . . . can't wait until i have peace in this world
I. . . would be the worlds happiest person without having to put up with this crap!
The things he says are stupid!
He thinks he is all good! He thinks i have raised my kids well! What kids. From the beginning i was never his child! Pft he never attended any of my ceremonies?? He never attended my graduation. . He never attended my Ball! So what the hell is he on about huh? Him getting pissed off at me? Wait it should be me, where the hell was he during my entire childhood? Oh yeah that's right. ' WORK' was important! Even though he was just an employer it's called take a sick leave day. And now he pretends to CARE about my education and chucks a hissy fit! Hello, your nothing to me. don't just come to the dinner table try to take control of the family and ruin my mum;s birthday!
I don't need a father like him! OLD, retard! who needs to know someone like him?

Okay must cool down. Ranting is not going to change anything. All i have to do is let time past by :] it won't be long and i willl be 21 :]

On the other hand i brought a very yummy cake. First time i brought something where my mum and sis and bro agreed that it tasted good hehe :]

Tomorrow last class then SHOPPING WITH COFFEE AND CAKE with good friend :] so excited hehe
been longing for this day to come. using muffins as substitue to cakes. it never works like that! o th smell os Lola by marc jacobs smells so good. <3

i was...

2008-10-13T21:39:00.003+08:00

i had heaps to write tonight, then started to play msn uno... then got lazy so today i am not going to bother with a post
but hope that everyone had a wonderful day and stayed happy

AND A BIG SHOUT OUT TO STEPHANIE, HAPPY 18TH GO WILD, PARTY HEAPS, GET HEAPS OF PRESSIE AND EAT LOTS OF BIRTHDAY CAKE =]

and to you all have yet another wonder adventurous day =]

Is it time yet?

2008-10-12T20:36:00.003+08:00

Craving for chocolate, yes i have the urge of just transforming everything into chocolate so i can just eat it, but obviously it's impossible because i am not some kind of chocolate queen.

Anyways been some busy crazy past few months. assignments due, party, break.
Oh break that was the thing i was looking for to the most, i was literally busy for the whole week, caught up with friends and watched, 'eagle eye'. I did not think that it was going to turn out great, not until i saw it, man did it put you in a lot of suspense through out the movie. ha ha i enjoyed which was cool... the next day went to the movies with a another friend and watched 'wall e' it is one of the most cutest 3D animation's i have ever seen.n But then there were some boring scenes =]
The one i want to watch most is 'the duchess' hehe... i only have to go through another week then i have a 1 week holiday =D

For some reason i have been off put of alcohol, i no longer crave for it and if it is offered to me i do not get over excited about it. Like at the beginning of the year, i was pretty much like Oh my god, i am going to be legal for drinking so i want to try every kind, then last night they were mixing little portions of different drink and giving them out, and literally there was quite a lot, and i rejected all. That's a lot of will power, for me. A lot drank last night because none of them really drove to the party.
my action surprised me a bit, but in a way i am proud of myself. Even though this sounds like something that can be easily done.

Anyways moving on to a better topic~! Oh my god i am obsess with cookies and cream. The ice cream and the drink. Nothing suss about it huh? but yes i have craved for it when i can. I had a cookie and cream drink at Icey ice. It was really good =D oh and pizza, craving for that to. Yes i know, people would probably be thinking, 'just go and get it, why crave for it!' i am to lazy to go out and buy it, and icey ice is all the way in the city and i do not go past it, so the only chance when i to icey ice is during my university break week. So only one more week to endure the pain of learning, well not really a pain, but just the fact that knowing after that week and a study break following after it, that your exam was going to be in your face before you know it totally eeks.!

But once exams are over, i can relax, yet at the same time, totally stress about. How the hell i was going to celebrate my birthday! everyone have exams during my birthday, and i can celebrate it late, but where am i going to hold it?. Many things to consider.

Oh wells, that is all for later to worry about, now is the study and looking forward to the study break. =D

2008-06-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

hello
my fellow readers =D, i have completed my exams, currently waiting for results.
I had my interview for the University, it was pretty nervous if you as me. I had to dress up all nicely, but then i was heading to the city later hehe, so i was being sneaky and looked formal at the top half and inform down the bottom =D. I have been doing quiet a lot of spending ever since my holidays have started. I got my self some lovely denim shorts [this is something i would usually never do] but lately i haven't been myself. I even recently went out and got myself some red jeans! Since when did i wear coloured jeans?But i must say they do look pretty dazzling =D
Tomorrow i'm going out with another friend of mines, and it's the city. Oh gosh i'm getting so bored of that place. I crave for a movie these days, but my best friends are going through the process of exams. Damn it. Why can't all universitys have their exams all at once. This makes it easier for the teachers and the students, everyone can see each other without worrying about their timetable.

Another to mention. OMG i need a job! i need handy fast cash. but my local area, doesn't seem to need any hiring at the moment. So all i can do it wait. which is getting quiet frustrating, because all fast food areas are looking for people to hire. But i promised myself never to work at a fast food store, because the amount of suffering you get from there =[ and how early you had to get up just to earn that little money. My parents allowed me to get a job but they said it has to be across the road. I mean what the hell, i haven't reached my legal age, otherwise i would have worked at the newagency, but other than that i'm pretty sure i'll never get hired the amount of applicants that applied. [damn you people]

i found a new exciting layout, you like it? i bet you do haha...
Alrights it's getting late... it's about time i hit the nice cozy materials in my room.
Oh and i can't believe that Australia is soon going to be on shortage of Gas. This really sucks, my parents are trying to contribute some help, so then they said that we are not allowed to use the heater this year!! they have got to be kidding me! this Winter is like crazy cold, especially how the climate has changed dramtically over the years. Australia these days are either summer or winter, not much of spring and autmn happens here! damn it! i'm hell going to freeze my ass off this Winter~! i guess more shopping for clothes to keep me warm this season =D

Good night =]

2008-05-22T16:55:00.002+08:00

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2008-05-09T23:32:00.005+08:00

i have finally completed my assignment essay, but then got presentation next week got two actually and one of them i am presenting second, and then my other one i am presenting first, which kind of piss me off, because i had a choice whether to go first nor not, but i was in a i don't care mood so i accepted it T_T

Anyways, i am meant to be raging so here i go, as i mention from my previous blog that i was going to a friends 18th, anyways i need a lift and all that crap, but i do not really know how i can get there because mum starts work at about 5 or maybe early, anyways, i text my friend and asked her if i can come a little bit early she said that she doesn't really know what is happening so then told me to go an hour later i told her sure... why not, pft then i told mum, she literally did not answer which really pissed me off, i had to reply my friend so i repeated what i said again, and she goes,' yeah i heard what you said you do not need to repeat yourself' WTF she did not answer me and gets pissed of at me, she always do that to me! she has no time management, always disorganised, this is probably where i got those talents as well, and probably why i failed half of my freakin school life, being disorganised and not knowing time management! anyway I asked her what time, ha all she can say was erm i am not sure about that maybe around this time and that time?? uh.. what the hell is this time or that time, i swear she must have got the basic learning skills and that is learning how to read the stupid clock! ha then she goes with another idea, oh what about this you can go to the party half an hour late, and you could have dinner at work then i can send you there! ha she is pretty smart, finding a way to get herself out of work, as soon as she can! and what i am not going to let her ruin my fun, i get there late, within 2 hours i get a phone call from her screaming,' i am coming to pick you up now! because i have work tomorrow and i am tired at the moment so i need my sleep so be ready this time [which means i will be standing near the door wait for half an hour for her to arrive even though we live so close] so Christ sakes, she always ruin my fun. she never go to work on time always half an hour to forty five minutes late, makes an excuse like i had to clean the house blah blah blah which she doesn't all she does is clean those two dishes from my brother and sisters breakfast, she takes half an hour in the bathroom every morning! then she leaves at like 2 or 2:30 to pick my brother and sister up, goes home sleeps until 5 to 5 then goes to work, she comes home at 9 then complains how tiring her day was god damn it she does nothing at work, we have literally hired a guy at the back of the kitchen to help out with the orders, all she does is take in the orders and deliver it. she does everything in slow slow motion, takes her time, like on Saturday mornings she tires to be hard working gets up at freaking 6:30 dragging me up with her as well go to the stupid vegetable markets, and she like drags her feet while she walks to grab the vegetables she needs, then comes back and complain how so many people go or either that there was no vegetables today, literally i do not give a damn about it! we go home, i have to cook breakfast for her, i don't mind it, but at times i just really can not be bothered to go through the whole process of cleaning up all the mess for her! anyway there again she goes for her sleep until it is about quarter to nine then we leave the house and yet we are late again! she does some of the vegetable chopping, a small bunch of celery like about4 to 5 bunch, can actually take her 3 hours just to cut them up seriously. and she tries and create all these weird foods, and preparing dinner also takes many hours to prepare lets say more 3 hours as well! WHAT THE HELL it is only feeding 5 people, and all 5 of us do not eat a lot, then it is time to go home for a nap, oh yeah and now since my oldest daughter is hard working i think i will leave at lets say 2 then will not come back until 6 or maybe 6:30 if i feel like it! and then for the rest of the night she decides to read magazines, ha i ask her why are you reading magazines, sometimes i get tired because i only get an hour to sit down, or maybe not even and hour if people decide to have dinner at 3! anyway she makes a remark oh well i need to read these, its my relaxing time! er what ever i am pretty sure she just had like a 4 hour break and those magazines are not important because it is just seeing what is on special! then another break come around 8, i literally have to set her dinner out and then when i do and she decided to go to the toilet[ okay the meaning of toilet is not a normal term for us you see when mum goes to the toilet that means walking halfway, she goes and talk to the cleaners, for lets say 5 to 10 minutes, okay then he gets pissed, then moves my mum then continues to walk towards the toilet then starts chatting to one the the tenants for about 20 minutes to half an hour goes to the toilet then comes back but makes a stop at the same tenant shop she was talking to before have talk again for say about 15 minutes then makes her way back][sorry it sounds like stalking but it makes you wonder how can a trip to a toilet take so long especially if you only need to piss!] she sits down and eats and then complains, this food is cold, did you reheat this? blah blah, i am pretty sure i did, but you just decided to make everything cold, then at nights when she is back from work , she knows that she is tired and that the next day is going to be hard for her if she does not get her rest! but she does not care, she goes and watch television until 12 + then the next morning starts complaining about her aches!
there is so much more i can just rage about, it just annoys me why can she not just be a responsible mother, who organises herself, knows what she is doing each day at what time and keep her mobile phone with her at all times, literally when you need to call her desperately, it is never with her someday i am going to have a serious accident and then when i need to reach her ha, i will not be able to and then before she knows it she will be blaming herself and regretting so many things!

But on the good sides of me, today i went to a cafe to buy my friend pepsi as a b'day present [ u only get it if you were there at that moment] anyways, i remember giving the guy a ten dollar note, because the can only costed two dollars, anyway he looked at me and started a conversation and started to ask me questions like, are you Singaporean or or Malaysian something like that, i told him no and then said to him that my uncle used to own this cafe, he ask a few questions then gave me my change and left, i walked out of the cafe was near the coffee shop kind of far away, the change was still in my hand because i was trying to but that can in my bag hopping it will not explode or make my books all soaked, got near the bus station was putting my chain back into my purse but then only realising that the man had give me fifty two dollars change, oh my god i was like a little girl at a candy store i was happy, probably because it was quiet a lot of money to receive especially when you just gave someone ten dollars hoping the return of eight dollars back. then i called mum and told her about it, she said i should give it back, but i was not going to walk all the way back because my mum had just arrived and i am not going to miss that bus and wait half an hour for the next one to arrive, so i told her she laughed and said lets talk about it when you get home, we shall think of ways to spend it. In our tradition if you receive wrong change[a greater amount like in my case] or picked up money from the floor, you should think of ways to spend it, little bit or all of it, but just a way of spending it because it kind of symbolise as stealing i do not know how but it is bad luck. i was just jumping happy all the way home, 1st of all would be i have never receive wrong change from anyone, but i have given out the wrong change and since it is first time man that is a huge amount. not even my parents would give me fifty dollars that casually! since i have been having a bad day that was actually the only thing that cheered me up so i am pretty happy about it =]

anyway it is getting late and tomorrow is Saturday, so guess what! i am heading to the vegetable markets bright and early, hope you all get a good sleep in =]
Kayan

2008-05-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

i'm so not in the mood for anything, i've been having busy weeks, don't know if i'm really stressing out, i think i am .. but just taking it a different way
ha i figured, if i'm not feeling good i go shopping, either buying stuff for myself so i feel happy and excited otherwise just window shopping.. T_T i need a job seriously .. ha omg I was at morning glory yesterday... and i saw this really nice mickey mouse bag.. Oh i want it soo much ... but i didn't bring enough money damn it! oh i hope it still there, when i go back, but then i think mum would kill me if i get it, because she would say 'oh you can get that in hong kong much cheaper' pft as if we are ever going there, she promised me so many times, it kinda annoys me that she make all these promises but then in the end it never happens, like winter shopping for jeans and new clothes during my 1 study break back a few weeks ago.. it never happened.. now i'm using this facial cream but it's not working for my face, so then i was going to try the new brand, but i need to finish this one first, then a few days ago she goes to me, oh we can go and have a full check and buy their products after your exams... lets see if she can keep this promise as well...

I've got so many tops, but no bottoms, kinda annoying me now ha

i've only got 1 more week of class then it's finished for the course, then one week of study break... then the real exam T_T
Oh god... it's going to be my 1st university exam... but its going to be in the classroom so it won't feel really that weird at all.. i don't think..
i've got presentations next week, it's going to be my 1st one as well, but i'm not looking forward to it, because i'm scared i might give the wrong information or maybe missed out some very important information T_T,... and we are getting marked quiet hard on this.

Plus viual aids, giving out handouts for the class, what the hell, i've never done anything like that before!

Oo i was on the train the other day, and then there was a bunch of colorful people sitting infront of me and next to me, i don't mind them but they spoke their language very loud, and it was kinda making me want to tell them to shut up, ha ... then yesterday was on the train again to the city, and then a colourful family was on, their kids were not dressed appropriately, the parents was standing in front of the train door, and the children were jumping seat to seat, okay they were kind of cute and i don't mind if you go from one side of the window to another, but don't lean on me, or touch me, i'm one of those people who would run miles away, if you didn't shower, or if you looked dirty, because it makes me feel uncomfortable, so then one of the kid was leaning on me as if i was like a wall, god i wanted to scream, her hair was not brushed, it was mess, she was partly dirty, her parents didn't care, she's been walking bare foot, so her feet were black down the bottom. Oh i felt so good when i got off the train, but then afterwards uncomfortable, oh gosh the 1st thing i did when i got home was shower... i think i''m becoming more racist then i ever used to be... which is really bad, because i hate racist people and i don't want to become one of them.

Anyways, it's my friends 18th this week, i'm excited because it's my 1st 18th party i'm going to =D she wrote BYO and you know me, i'll definitely bring something ha
mum took me to the liquor store, but she tried to persuade me not to bring alcohol, ha which didn't really work, so anyways brought it home, then the next night she was like, hey can i have one of your cruisers, i was like yeah sure, i won't drink all of it i think, anyways, so then the next night she asked i again, i started to get annoyed, ha i was like, is this your way of not letting your daughter bring alcohol to a party, buy it but then you go ahead and drink all of it... i got pissed off, then i said fine go and drink it all i don't care, i'll just get someone to buy me some, ha she got hell pissed when i said that, then she goes, fine bring it, but don't you dare get other people to buy it for you XD
Anyways i better get started on my lovely report for human bio ha

ka yan

2008-04-27T22:44:00.002+08:00

I've been quiet busy with assignments these days... I'm nearly at the end of my course, which makes me very excited!~ But so many presentations and all... i can make it through =]

But anyways, during my study and school days i have been out XD, i went to my first club which was at the onxy bar =] i went with a few friends, because A.S.I.A back to basics was held there, too bad it was alcohol free so then there wasn't any booze, but it was good, there was lots of nice music, and all of us danced to it, oo and the boys, many cute cute one haha... but it ended, the actual fun started after the event, but i'm under age at the moment.. he he he so can go to afters next year =D

my godfather has been staying at our house for over a week i think, it's starting to annoy me, i'm he's a nice person and all, and it's kind of him to come all the way from northam and help my mum friends to fix the house, but him staying at our house everyday, just pisses me off just a bit... here i shall start listing!:
1. i can;t have my late showers anymore because he's sleeping
2. i brought a really nice inflatable cushion to sit on, and i got it from the royal show! God knows if they are still selling it this year, so he used it as a foot stool, and now it has a hole somewhere and it's deflating.
i had 2 but one deflated one i first got it but now this one is deflated as well T_T!! i loved this one it was a strawberry figure!
3. We always go down to the shop, then stay there for many hours, then going home late!
there is more, but i can;t be bothered, but these are the many reasons why i don't want him here!

My driving, gosh I'm getting so lazy with it, I've cancel so many lessons, ha, don't think I'll ever get to the stage where i can get my 'P',

Oo I'm hungry, but I'm getting very fat these days, i have like a very big arm, well the upper part T_T i think it's a size of a half of a chicken ha ha, need to loose weight quick and fast... wait, wait ,wait, it's winter now, it the season where i eat lots, especially ice cream [yes that was just a fatty talk]
Time to sleep talk about more later XD
nights to all

2008-04-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

Alright this is whats on my mind.,..

People in Tibet and those supporters of Tibet... GET OVER IT! alright??.. the Olympics literally has nothing to do with it. It's a sporting event, for everyone's entertainment... just because it was held in china doesn't mean that you go attack those bloody innocent people~ literally, if the Olympics was held in another country, then would you be attacking those people holding a torch or the people in china? exactly.. you stupid fools! So get it around your thick heads. and stop interfering with the Olympic games, so some people who might not have a chance to see it in future.. is ruin because of your stupidness, and for that actor who made a speech... OMG how stupid can you get~ okay so you were following your beliefs but don't you think it's a really bad idea to encourage people? Don't you think you causing more of a trouble? What the hell happen to America and all those FKN speech about 'World Peace' huh? i don't think your living up to what your motto or saying is! this all started with Tibet and China, so then be it, let them fit their heads off, it doesn't need another half of the population support, pretty sure, if you damn capable of causing this trouble, then your damn capable of fixing it themselves! it's just ridiculous. World peace my ass the people who causes the trouble. And for those reading, this is not a taking side thing! i'm angry and frustrated because obviously 2008 will definitely make it to the history book saying ' In the year 2008 Tibet wants freedom, so then they decided to destroy the Olympics which was held in China Beijing' Oh isn't that going to look great in the history book. What kind of good memory is that? The Future kids would probably read it and say .. wow how Fked up was their years back then..... with in a decade, their has been a terrorist bombing, then the Bali bombing, then you've got people who think is cool trying to blow up an airport and innocent people!

Literally, never ever ever say you want world peace America, unless you have literally looked it up the dictionary and read it's definition and have actually got it through your thick minds! Stop going off and pissing other countries, stop taking sides just because it makes your country more WOW and leader of the world! Just stop all of it, none of it is making you hero, none of it is making people to like you more, your not making people happy at all [ missing events, dead family members] literally one day the calender is going to be celebrating some major attack day and people cannot celebrate their birthdays knowing that so many people died in a specific year just because of some stupid ass hole who decided to piss of another country.

i could rant on about this for a long time. But it's a waste of time because none of this would sink into any of those brains! So for those people who actually know the meaning of 'World Peace' good for you .. hoping that you have done something good for the others and the world. and for those who still don't really know the meaning! look it up, memorize it, even better study it until you actually know the true meaning of it!

Now thats out of the system~ =D I'm on my uni break now for about a week haha ... well i only have a few more days of it left, but i have so much assignments to catch up on... so thats half of my break gone.. T_T mum has been so busy i haven't got the time to go to get converse shoes~
i missed the big sale... so i didn't get to buy the shoes i wanted.. talking about missing out! i can't believe i missed out ' One Republic' i was so planning to watch them... but i was lazy to go and check when the tickets were for sale.. damn it.. !
i think i'll just have to wait for another one of my favorite bands to come and perform. hehehe
Shopping haha ... Winter Clothes is all i need! =D

Signning Poki poki

2008-04-03T21:19:00.002+08:00

I had a random day today.. haha i had uni at 12:30 so then mum decided to drop me off at the bus stop at like 9:15.. had to wait for that bus... for another 15mins for it to arrive... Got to uni just a tad early.. was kinda hungry so all i thought of while i was on the bus was what to eat... [i feel so much like a fatty] Anyways, i went and brought lunch.. and found some random spot [outside of timezone, not really the best spot to be eating outside of due to those loud machines] and was eating much lunch... o then guess what some stupid seagull decided to hop onto my table... yes hop because it lost a leg [damn bird hell deserves it] and then it tried stealing my food! why can't that bird be as dumb as all the other birds and not have the thought of jumping up onto the table and trying to steal my food. But then i was kind of scared of it, because it had a sharp beak... and it lost it's webbed feet, i was going to scream, which up until now, i still do because it scares the shits out of me. this caused me to migrate from my spot, i ended up walking around Fremantle and eating lunch T_T

i was still early to class though like 2 hours early.. decided to have some fun... since i've never really had any since i came into uni.. i went into timezone and played a few game [it was lonely and geeky walking into one of those alone, especially if your a girl!] ... omg i'm the most hopeless person ever, i played this racing car game, it was out of time, so i lost the game T_T, then i played DDR beginners level, literally fail that game haha then went to play some motor cycle game.. and guess what i was comming 8th place =D... haha i gave up after that, went to the lolly shop to see if they sold those really yummy mandarin gummies [seriously you should try some yourself too, they really taste like real fruit mines the juicy taste] ..... but they disappointed me.... they weren't opened yet T_T!

i walked abit more then decided to go to the library to go on msn XD
but i bumped into a friend so that kind of saved me.. and we walked like a few metres and then headed to the common room... talk there for a while... then sat outside the classroom... OMG i totally forgot we had a test.. i didn't really study for it... i only kind of realized when i double checked with a friend [this is the real me... last minute notice with things] then i Did the test.. didn't know a few things.. lucky i had time to play around on the computer during test time and figure out where most of the buttons were... then i decided to wait for my results.. the fact that.. it was only 1:30 and mum wasn't going to pick me up until 3 ha...

oo then when i got picked up... mum took dads car for a battery change... obviously my.. mum is not really one of those big money spenders on cars.. so we went to this small little shop near by,.. and got it changed.. the dealer was one of my mums customers... so she got discount and all... they guy had a funny name so we shorten it and it sounded more funny.. if you understand cantonese then you'll know what i'm saying ' hub hub' keke... anyways.. so then we left.. we only left a few meters.. then mum started hearing this clickity klunty sound... haha.. at first we thought it was my sister.. then mum started to scared the shits out of herself.. stopped the car and checked if the tires were flat... which they weren't, because they were perfectly normal... then she did a U turn and headed back to the mechanics shop.. haha... mum did have some revsering out of the shop problem before... so then when she arrived... the mechanics couldn't stop laughing at her.. and in a silly voice.. asked.. whats the problems this time.. ha she told them about the sounds and noise... they got her to reverse the car back and fourth in a very slow motion... haha..
at first they said it was the front wheel, so then the 1st mechanic started to touch the wheels to see if there was air then this random mechanic comes up gives a closer look then startes kicking the wheel... [seriously wtf??] anyways then they look on the left side of the wheel then tells mum 'sorry but this wheel is retarded! what did you do to it... it's totally off angle' he kicked it to try and fix it haha then he gives as an advice that we should start walking home and not ride the car... the mechanic starts making fun of mum when she asks.. so then what? what now? all he answered was.. yup.. i'm walking home... i suggest you to as well.. this car is mishaped ha... it pissed her off at a point XD
the problem wasn't really fixed... so he told her to drive around the block then come back if she hears the noise...

And so she did.. but guess what there was no sound at all... it was quiet... she drove down the block abit more.. then turned back.. and told the mechanics that it was all good again.. we all laughed because all they had to do was kick the wheel really hard and then the noise was gone...

And that random mechanic started laughing... unstop ably, which was funny because he laughed like a women, or a girl haha..
mum thought it was funny to but she was kind of pissed at the same time because it was going into her sleeping time...

well then that taught me a lesson about cars... when ever you hear clicking noise around the wheels the first thing you should do is put your anger out on it.. haha

well that all i've got to share today hehe until next time =]
takkaire

Signning off
Ka Yan

2008-03-30T09:22:00.003+08:00

Wow it's been a month since i last posted i think??
i'm sorry guys... it's been busy for me lately with uni... OMG i swear i've never used so much of my brain~ i mean all that test and stuff happening... it's just too much...
now that all of that is done.. except for that human biology ongoing mini test.. i'm pretty relaxed at the moment... YAy i have my break in about a weeks time... that gives me a whole week to do a whole make over for my clothes!

oo i went bowling with all my friends... this is like the 1st time i have seen half of them since graduation... so different man...i miss high school now haha.. the fact that i used to complain about it so much.... but it was good... and omg so many people have their P's and their own car...
now that makes me want to have my own car ! wouldn't that be good...
o wait that means another dangerous driver on the road hahaha
then i got home late like about 11 to 12~ felt weird because now i'm all grown up... i've never been out that late with friends.. and the fact that mum didn't take me there and take me home... it was just me car pulling with friends i feel so grown up now.. just abit.. haha ... well thats going to be scary since the fact that i act like a primary school kid... and never take anything serious enough ahha

OMG i found a 2 cent coin yesterday when i was working.. i thought it was just a $2 anyways... i got happy and excited all afternoon haha .... pretty stupid
ugh~ i have a bloody cold... and it's giving me a headache...
lol....i thought of being sick last week... because i thought to myself... hm.. i haven't been sick for a long long time... but then didn't actually think it would happen this week.... so i guess you have to be careful with what you wish and think of T_T

i want to go out tonight... but is sunday.. and no shops are open T_T stupid australian rule~
daylight saving has ended in perth already.. is kind of stupid now.. i woke up at 8 according to the new daylight saving~ and it feels like afternoon... then look at time... realise that it was still early... well then lets hope it;s not so dark for me tomorrow,.. since i have to wake up really early to catch the bus..
and the nice weather man said it was going to rain... fingers cross hope it rains later in the day... so then i don't have to bring umbrella, it's not very reliable... it flips when the wind gets too strong haha

oo i watch alvin and the chipmunks oh god they are soo cute... especially when they sing the song by maroon 5
oo i heard One republic was going to do tour in australia... argh!! i want to get tickets to see them!! anyone want to join me??

anyways i';ll stop blogging for now.. =D

everyone takkaire... and stay away from me for the being time.. hahah don't want to get you sick to XD

kayan

2008-02-29T09:58:00.002+09:00

I need help with this fkn bus timetable for monday... it's a stupid public holiday and i need the times for it... but i was dumb enough to go and throw out my whole entire thing... i'm a very smart person aye??

i'm sitting in the massive library ... suppose to do my work.. but i'm not really in the mood heheh.. and the people i want to talk to on msn are not even on...!!
i have a friggin 4 hour break and i have nothing more to do except to be online and doing very useless things at the moment and i am kind of hungry at the moment all i can think of at the moment is food~~ yes ahha

oh how i wish that 1st lecture could be over and done with! i oso want to go to the city to go shopping hehe .. but i don't think that will happen since it's a little bit late i think!

i have to complete 2 assignments which i really don't get and i have to do it in a formal informal way~ yes... very complicated right?
anyways i'll write more tonight with some pictures i took today =D

signning off
Kayan

2008-02-28T18:40:00.003+09:00

today isn't really my day, mum dropped me off at the stop.. just a bit early.. and i was basically burning...~ i'm like and orange kayan now.. or maybe a little bit worser!
hahah mum offered one of those umbrella's that flips if the wind it to strong..
i had too much coffee today.... but i was actually excited about class and i was really awaken... haha
but this coffee is sooo yummy
haha
yes.. i had that today~

i literally had to run to catch the bus home.. and guess what! i was in a crappy bus, meaning the really old version of a new bus = no air condition at a weather of 40 degree Celsius and having the whole bus full of people + a screaming baby

anyways.. mum picked me up at hj's then got home
but later in the night my sis was watching a drama called 'Why Why love?'
anyways i screamed at her for using up all the internet storage and making the connection slow... she stopped watching it but she started to go all fluffy and decided to sit next to me and read all my convo's then she comments... then my crazy brother decided to sniff my hair and makes a comment ' you hair smells nice' wtf is he on about? we use the same shampoo~~!! geez... neither of them had chocolate or coffee! crazy people...
anyways.. it's going to be an early start tmr.. so i'm off to bed hehe

=D
signing off
kayan

2008-02-27T19:03:00.003+09:00

school started... OMG i missed a bus.. just to wait for mt friend realising that she didn't start class until late.. i had to catch the next stupid bus haizz... 'pervets around me'
Anyways got school... omg had maths today... it was the most boring lesson ever~ it was like reliving year 6 and 7 maths~ we learnt how to subtract hahah .. addition~ multiplication and divison... then headed homw straight after class... yet again.. i missed my bus... i was running after it.. while the stupid bus driver was exiting out the port T_T.. i had to wait for a a later bus...

i actually have homework from that course as well... it's actually easy.. but still .. kinda stupid..
i saw a bunny this morning.. while i was walking it was hell cute.. i forgot to bring my camera so i was kinda pissed haha .. and it was a really pretty sunrise as well this morning.. but my camera just couldn't get the full image.. yes these all sound like excuses..

Yay only one class tmr.. but it's in the afternoon.. T_T another day wasted haha .. i have so much assignments to do.. but i just haven't bothered ~ and i still haven't found the assignment box. damn it~!
Has any one seen the midland bricks ad? haha it's funny as but stupid at the same time as well ..

My 1st week is going to end soon, oh i'm going to be so glad that it's over... kinda looking forward to one part of my weekend... crossing out the homework and assignment section hehe
anyways... hopefully i take pictures and i can upload it onto this blog hehe =D
Byee

signing off Kayan

2008-02-26T20:15:00.001+09:00

So today i basically stayed at the uni nearly all day.. just because of my laziness~~ i didn't want to walk to the bus stop so i got mum to drop me off at park and ride... T_T but mum thought i was going to catch the one... just right outside my house... we went the wrong way.. and my bus kind of decided to leave without me T_T huhuhuhu...
but i got saved by Mr "511" =D.. wasn;t late and the bus wasn't crowded at all super happy haha

had my 1st class at 12:30.. had the same tutor from yesterday.. haha we had fun for about 2 hours... OMG we had a spelling test.. i swear half the words were used daily... but still i got half of it wrong... shame on me..
we all laughed and worked at the same time.. not until the last hour... all of our heads were down and we actually did some writing.. that last hour was kind of hard to get through. Had an hour and 20 min break... my uni friends were hungry so the decided to go food hunting haha ... not impossible... since freo is basically a place for italians to mark their little bit of land ahha ... but seriously they make the best pizza =] anyways... so i didn't go for pizza.. but i went for ice cream at Armano OMG they make the best ice cream... today i tried the mango sorbet yummy man~ hahaha.. i swear i'm going to be fat by the end of my course if i keep dropping myself into that shop hehe...

The ice cream store that always attracts me =D

so then it was the end of 'lunner' break haha .. lunner means lunch and dinner =D
so then walks to next class... we were a bit early so i started to play with the disabled.. lift... it was actually very amusing haha .. because the lift doesn't come down automatically... you actually have to friggin press and hold the button and watch it slowly come down @.@...

we walked into class... teacher was kind a late.. one of our class mates told us that the teacher was going to teach us how to open and close the computer.. hahah which i kind of understand once we got into the computer labs.. well the opening part, that was because the stupid button was not round... but instead long and it looked like a decoration on the computer haha ..
so then class started... went through the stupid course outline for about 20 mins... it was getting really repetitive, the fact that every course outline is the same in a way.. then we learnt how to search through the uni website.. oh gosh so boring...

the girl sitting next to me was basically on myspace all along.. haha .. the teacher didn't notice... i did something to make myself not so bored... i decided to actually listen and answer the questions if i knew it... hahah the teacher gave me a weird look when i shot my hand up in the air... i putted on this desperate look of wanting to answer the question... even the girl on the otherside of me laughed haha... well atleast i made her lesson amusing =D

i got on the bus after class... mum was original meant to pick me up at HJ's but she didn't make it on time... so i caught it all the way back to the petrol station.. OMG there was a fkn hot guy sitting right next to our car.. and infront of the bus stop.. T_T only if mum didn't arrive so early i would have been able to stare at him just a tad little longer haha ..
but it was only a glance today...T_T someday i might get a little longer lol

anyways i'm super hungry at the moment dinner hasn't arrived yet T_T i'm going to die of hunger and got an early start tmr morning!!! damn classes...

here is something i got from a friend it's actually kind of sweet just want to share it will you all =D anways enjoy it
signing off
Kayan

'Life is short,
Break the rules,
Forgive quickly,
Kiss slowly,
Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably,
And never regret anything that made you smile.

2008-02-25T13:14:00.003+09:00

Today i had my 1st day of uni... it was okay.. except that my tutor has decided to go through the outline for 2 hours.. then start on a little activity.. i was so about to sleep in that class haizz...
kind of waste of time as well... i spend 1 hour to get there which mean having to get up at 6am to catch that damn bus.. but knowing me.. i don't get up till the very last minute.. sot his caused me to miss my bus T_T huhuhuhu
then i arrive at uni, realising that i am half an hour early, my day couldn't get any better~ i arrive to the front of class waiting and waiting... meet a girl.. she is nice.. but.. nothing much to talk about >.< 'so lots of silent moments' i even forgot her name after she told me like 2 seconds ago...
then class.. then end of class.. then another stupid hour of bus~ but lucky i didn't have to walk home today because my friends mum came pick us up =D..
but then there goes my exercise for the day haizz....

mum isn't home yet and i am very very hungry because i didn't eat this morning T_T
and i can't be bothered making a mess.. otherwise i have to clean up.. so much troublesome.. !!
i think i will just sleep off the hunger until my mum comes home... hopefully with some food for my little tummy hehehe

but i love tomorrows timetable in a way.. i start class in the afternoon woot yeah =D
then wait 1 hour i think.. then got another class and then finish at night around 6:30pm
i'm so excited about the night class... even though it's going to be damn bright outside.. it would probably look like it was the afternoon... stupid weather in perth!

anyways i think i have made kind of a long entry just me blabbing on crap out my not so cool school day~!!

oh and hope all my friends had a good day at uni today =D

signing off
Kayan <3

Blogganising

2008-02-24T16:36:00.001+09:00

Oh gosh.. i have finally decided to come back to my world... ~ haha all thanks for a very nice friend... who convinced me to come backt to this blogging world haha you know who you are and thank you ~

university has finally started for me.. i got into what i wanted which is good.. but there is so much to complain about... haha my timetable is so different to high school.. it's so unorganized the times are all over the place... this is going to be so hard for me to catch up with my friends.. since none of them are attending my uni T_T"" i'm kind of alone..

i miss shopping... i came to conclusion... that your shopping list never ends.. wait that was already stated long time ago T_T oh well~

i have a stack of work to complete~ but i really can't be bothered at the moment, not really in the mood.!

OMG! i can't find my ipod~ it's not in my bag~ it's the only thing that lets me survive during those long crowded bus rides, i hope it's in my dads car... otherwise i would have to get a new one huhuhuhu

oo look what me and my friend did at fremantle... we decided to treat ourselfs ofter our last orientation lecture [even though each day it was only 3 hours haha] we got into timezone, played around.. hahah we even did our 15 minutes of exercise on the dance revolution O_o haha

oo it was fun.. i hope we get to do more stuff in freo haha.. there are so many shops and ice cream shop haha
a promise my friend and i made... is that we try all the ice cream flavours before we graduate... i wonder who's going to be super super fat .. me or my friend XD

Life Is

2007-08-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

Life Is...
Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is a sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
-Mother Teresa

it's sooo sweet heheh .... but i stole this off someones blog.... hope ya don't mind... =D

2007-08-09T16:39:00.000+08:00

i've came back from school and i have been pissed ever since. All these stupid assignments, deadlines, homework!... i've never had this much pressure before i think this is all stupid. i learn nothing new... but the same repetative crap taht have been taught for the past 4 years! now i have some stupid assholes in my hosue jumping up and down making loud noises, thinking this is some wild jungle! GOD DAMn IT what is wrong with these people!... can't anyone just be quiet!

this ain't going so well! i wnat this term to end as fast as it can now mroe of those stupid assignments in my face and just let me have my relaxation. in my whold life i have never consecutivly woken up 4 am before! but because of those stupid dead lines it's making me do that!

GAR!!!!!!

totally zoned out!

2007-08-02T04:10:00.000+08:00

argh~ about those photo from retreat i can't be bothered to fine them ha .. so you stuck with just the information =p

now school... i only have a few more weeks left, assignments all need to be completed asap~ i don't like it very much.it's 4:15am i'm up trying to finish off my math assignment and then complete some stupid proposal and write up a speech in a few hours. All because of this other stupid assignment i was doing for early childhood! One of the major ones we have done, and in the end all we have to is do a speech >.<" such a waste of time! plus i have a test today~ oh god.. what am i still doing here on blogger and writting my problems,
pft~ to early and my toes are cold at the moment, i guess i can study at lunch or maybe finish the assignment at lunch either one =D it's not until the last period so i guess i'm all cool with that. Now just that stupid speech and proposal, well not really just the speech i've hand written my proposal =D i'm soo smart ha

i think i have a mosquito on one of my fingers because it is really itching me, but i can't find it at all >_<
no one is online this early, all my american friends are out or either erm drinking at home .. O_O ya... so inda hard to talk to them when half of them are drunk! wish i could drink, not that i would be addicted to it or anything, but having those blur moments where you have no clue what you did would be cool, you just end up doing silly, funny things without hurting yourself ha... anything but drugs~ no to those stupid things!

i think i might go back to work otherwise i'll totally stress out if i don't finish it and since i woke up so early just for this i would be extremely pissed off if i can't finish it =]

anyways, i wonder if people actually read what post up here~

Back from Retreat

2007-07-13T16:05:00.001+08:00

harlo

well... i came back from retreat some time ago... but just been so lazy to actually write up a post ...RETREAT WAS HELL FUN!! except for those bitches who decided to ruin it other then that it was good... so here it goes

1st day: The Arrival
got to the camp site, found a room.. hm.. not so luxury as you can see from the photos below but... it was alright, got into the 1st activities~ hm...that was kinda funny, we had to play a game where we are in small little groups, and we have to arrange ourself from the shortest to the tallest closing our eyes, it was hard and difficult but in the end we got it. Then the teacher decided, lets make it more fun!... instead of little groups, lets do it in one big group, haha now that was really hard there is like about 60-70 of us, all in different height, some we are not close to, eyes closed and ... some wondering hands lol!
my friend got her boob grabbed by some random, because they thought it was their head lol!

so that was 1st game , the second one was a lifesaver game. Each person has a toothpick in their mouth and then the lifesaver is threaded through it. Then we have to run to the other side of the room and pass it to the next person, without using our hands, hm.. yeah... about that, not soo good! Our lips are like about 2 cm off the next person when we pass it on, not trying to be mean or anything, but i had to pass it on to one of the special education students, it made me uncomfortable, so i just took it off and threaded it throught their toothpick =D
then we changed groups and did it again, this time it was alright, because i had to pass it onto a friend =D, then it came morning tea. Wow the morning came soo fast!

After morning tea we got into our groups and just did some little activites, writting names like a crossword thingy and what we hope to get out of the retreat.
then lunch came.

Lunch was alright we had, i don't remember~... maybe something not nice so i didn't bother haha wait i remember... burger~ we made it ourselves it was horrible hahaha

then more there was abit of clean up haha that took like an hour, so that was like free time... then more of those stupid group activites!
then it was dinner!
this was funny~ the teachers wanted to suprise us make a special dinner, so we were not allowed to be near the dinning area. The had setted up the room like a fancy dinner, with candles, little tags on the table, to where each person sit, for all the females they were called lady..... and all the guys they were called lord....
and the teachers were all dressed up , with masks as well. When we went inside, the lights were out only candles on the table, we had to wear a mask and eat, which was actually quiet difficult oo and we ahd bubblys/non alcholic champagne lol tasted like crap because it was made out of grape juice =D i actually read the label! we had lasagna and ahem, so called garlic bread and salad, wasn't tasty pretty flat but can't complain if the teachers putted their effort and try to make it classy!
then ice cream the most decent food out of the whole day =D

it was bed time after that! we had lights out at 11:30~ how stupid was that .. heheh
had funny convos and wacked walls because it's only single brick layer wall... so hahah we can hear other peoples convo...

2nd day:

got up at 7:00am... got down to breakfast then we made our stoles! that was fun... i putted all the things that happened through out my life, had a reconciliation.... watched a religious video
then lunch...
then a mass hahaha
that was boring.. i fell asleep in it ... shhh.. hehe
then dinner
nothing special... decent meal.. fish and chips... but felt sick after that ha
hm.. then more of writting warm fuzzies... there are so many to write because the amount of people in that group! then we had a bonfire
it wasn't wokring at 1st so everyone gave up
except for me and some of my class mates
in the end it was really big
and we had trouble putting it out which was funny
yeah then next morning read warm fuzzies and then went home heheh i'll write more tml.. i'm sleepy =D

to be continued...

getting up in such a nice bed weather!

2007-07-03T05:59:00.000+08:00

i'm up! doing homework, well supposely ahhaha i can't be bothered to do it at the same time! i've been fixing my blogs and stuff, i better get amove on, otherwise i would have to complete it in class T_T that ain't no fun O_O!

have a good day
signing off
=kapi yan=

whats new?

2007-07-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

hahaha i figured in every blog entry i have made it always have some to say like... it's been a while blah blah blah... and so i shit on about it.
Anyways~ i'm in year 12... well already in the middle of it! and OMg so many news to tell you all about!

i got my leavers jumper today =D and i'm super happy about that hehe i got my name on it saying " Kapi yan" all thanks to ruri for giving me a coolies name =D
hehehe
here is what it looks like at the back of it =D
hehehe

so that made my day... at first i forgot what colour it was and size and what i ordered... but the people who ordered blue they get theirs tomorrow hahaha.... not fair, oh wellz it's life hehehe

then today went shopping ~ i went to FAL~ it's my favourite place to shop~ because today i brought heaps of lolllies...
Yummy Gummy Bears =D hahaha
guess what i also putted it in one of those little boxes i had when i was a kid... hehe aren't i awsome keeping it

okay these are the other junk food i brought, the boxes look small, but there is like alot of it inside the box, it's all fun size!!

=]~ they were all cheap!... only $20... these 3 boxes of chocolate can last me a long time, O_O haha i might be chocolate sick from it all!

oo i have retreat on wednesday! i'm super excited about it because no school and 3 days of mucking around doing nothing, except some praying but meh thats easy stuff, when the teacher tells you to close your eyes, then you and a bunch on friends purposly open their eyes and look around and then see others with one eyes open, trying not to look suss hahah

oh the good time, but it's pouring here! which is good but also not good because we are on retreat and it's going to but freezing!.... i hope there are warm heaters and that the beds are nice and comfortable and not all yucky, if it is i swear i would scream sleep uncomfortable and feel or yucky inside!
well i already do the fact that i am leaving my precious bed behind! lol

oh gosh it's late but i want to write more, but my eyes are slowly dropping soon i won't be able to lift them up haha ...

hm. next time i might talk about my non existing love life, or my invisible love life hahah ... that might be a change in topic, the fact that i don't talk about it at all, hm.... i wonder, what did i use to write on all my blogs...

okay before i leave... i'm posting up this question~ answer it if you want on my tagbox =D

What do you think of lesbians and Gays in this world? Do you hate them? Do you like them? And if i was one of them how would you react to it? Be honest hahah ... because this is a really interesting question, a friend asked me about this, i was like uh.... very hard to answer, i had to think about it ~ if you want to respond to it but not say your name you make up any funny name or have it blank =D

anyways i'm off for a snooze, i have to get up early to do my report haha ... i might blog at the same time =D
Bye

Signing Off
Kapi Yan

Where did is Kayan?.. i think she got lost!

2007-03-13T20:42:00.000+09:00

yes i have been missing for a while.... not that i am bad~ i feel like crap.. just because of one stupid little thing. Sometimes you just want to hate that person for giving you mixed feelings and then later on realising that it was a misunderstanding~~
i feel like crap~, my night is ruined, no matter how hard i try to make forget it, i feel stupid!

now i feel as if though i have gone into a deep deep tunnel so dark and cold. No one here to comfort me... just me and this dreadful silence.
i'm complaining too much and i feel like emo!!

i'm going to drown all this in my sleep!
lets hope tomorrow will be a more excitful and better day

what a week!!

2006-08-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

hello i have had a weird week it was fun and fantastic. But not as cool as last weekend. Last weekend i went to the curtin open day with a friend who studies there. i check out many thing and looked at many things. God it's so big, and tiring but fun and beautifull hehe. i even met people that i talk on msn .... don't know if the realised me =( oh well it doesn't matter... what a small world my friend belinda knows them as well.! Joey was crazy because she got 2 rings she really loved but forgot her money so i lend her. Trina stayed for a while then went home .. =( heheh i got to have snow cones there i had lime and strawberry flavour... and it's not disgusting is quiet nice and i liked it. Then went to city to have lunch, went past myers... then somehow ended up in the myers clothing section hm... i wonder how that happened -.^ lol then also saw 2 students from my school ... it reallly is a small world.. or maybe my city is just small .... then went home ... was exhausted. This week went shopping and saw chocolate they were cheap and they don't expire till 2008 so i brought alot... but i got into trouble for eating too much... so far i have eaten 2 whole blocks of chocolate and i only brought them on tuesday... i think my sugar level is going to be high ..... i must find something to distract myself from eating chocolate!! heheh which is impossible when they are right infront of you. Got forms to hand in for next years subject have to get them signed and stuff argh so annoying!

So proud of myself i discovered how to do roll overs for websites.... for some of you it's not that exciting but it is for me the fact that i sat there and tried i don't usually give things a go i usually give up heheheheh i have many assignments due next week yet i am so lazy to do! oh i hate Aaron so much you know he was on msn and the teacher caught him so now they have blocked it ... the school orginally blocked all the main chat lines so no one can go on it. But some of us found another way to go on it going on messengerfx or that buddy chat thingy and have been using it for quiet a while then that idiot goes on it and tells the teacher he was just asking questions about his cousin giving birth to a child then the IT people came and he had to tell them the website... now i think the whole entire school hates him because of that ... SMART ONE AARON!!but anyway ... i've been having accounting test every thursday since the begining of the term. This week is our first time we don't have a accounting test woop yeh so happy but then also not happy because tommorrow i have a human biology test man it sucks so much geez human biology had to ruin it didn't you lol. i think i had a cosmetic attack... today after school i just felt like putting on make up and make myself look all pretty... god i'm stupid .... like who is going to look at you at home lol.... well that is just me isn't it weird wako and phsyco ....
anyways i better go i got to start on my homework .. so late at night really can't be bothered.

cya quack quack kayan -.^

hey i'm back

2006-07-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

hey my friends i have rose from the dead =) yes

i have finally fixed up my blog and now it looks nice ... but still underconstruction hehe
anyways i have had a weird year so far.. and i did my first exam which was scary but i like it .... now i am study free this holiday
went to human exhibition wasn't that nice but was interesting hehe i don't think people read my blog.... haha but meh hu cares.

ok so it's holiday haha i'm totally busy this holiday ... well not really but kinda is... ok
on monday went to exhibtion for a whole day and ws meant to buy cds but somehow ended up buying all these really good cheap books then on tuesday got up late but then went shopping at carousel was there for 4-5 hours and brought many things home then wednesday work..... thursday till saturday work.... so thats no fun but my time all booked .. then on sunday i have a party thats from 6 till 11 but i have to be there early coz mum can't take me at 6 ok... thats only the first week. not sure what i'm doing on the second week but i think i will busy as well haha

on friendster i did this funny quiz.. calculate how sexy your name is ... and i got 1,864.... aparently my name is very sexy hm...... T^T
i miss my friends.... oh yeh and my uncle is comming from canada yay so happy comming to visit us but only for a week because before he comes to australia he goes to hong kong damn him....

you know what really sucks i cannot leave perth for the next 2 years... y this is because of TEE... i have to study etc... etc... etc.... and the i get the future talk. Man it really sucks i want to go back to hong kong i miss that place especially da shopping hahahahah

this week is extreme i met so many peopl on the internet form turkey they are so nice and friendly. I met 2 girls at first i was scared but hey in the end they were really cool people and some guy he sent me turkey song. i didn't understand the language but i like it haha now i am one of the people who have multicultural friends which means i have friends from all over the globe hehe i feel so lucky =)

anyways i better go i'll write some more tommorrow

signing off
Kayan

2005-12-25T18:13:00.001+08:00

hey guys yes i noe i haven't blog for like how long uh....? anyways.....going back into time ahahahaha....yes my birthday..it was the best went out with my fwends. then when i went back to school they gave me a suprise they gave me a card that was so damn cyute and they gave me a little cup cake with a candle...i noe ur not allowed anything that would wreck the skool... but they didn't find out ahahaha.. i got a candle on it and it had light it was sooo cool...it was the best man ahahahaha...

then following weeks was starting to become hell because of test last minute assignments and the final term report .....=S yups stressed out week for all of us. especially for mi fwend ollie....poor her..... we also had the river cruise that was soo fun. Thta was the bestest night. Everybody looked sooooo prettie that night it sucked that it ended soooo fast just whe the fun started ahahahaha... yes peoples i do have the river cruise pictures. but i haven;t had alot of time to send it to you but i do promise you that i will send it to you... (sorri i cannot post it up at the momen tcoz i'm at mi cousin house doin this) the week past kinda fast......... before u noe it......it was one day before the end of skool yep thats right the end of skool meaning the end of the year thhe end of yr 10....!!!!!!!!! ... if u heard me and my special fwend have been dreading dec 16th...why coz we wanted to see brett lee yups yups lol.... but the tickets we wanted to get were all sold out =( that sucked soooo much. we also didn't end up going ova to each others house to watch it.... holidays started. 2nd day of holiday started working till christmas day i didn;t get to seee any of my fwends at all. didn't even get to go to movies or shop =( .... christmas day get three days off.... lucky lye shiun and mel both get to go back to SG no fair =P to all my fwends if your all looking for a blog skin and dunno how to choose ....i suggets u ask my fwend ollie to help you design you one....y her... because she won skin of the day on the blogskin website how wicked is that it's like out of sooo many competitors and she was the chosen one... trust me this girl is full of talent and very creative oso smart. ahahahahha. well 3 days of rest for me... hm...

first day of christmas.. cousin and grandma form hong kong arrive at perth. So got lots of clothes and more clothes and more clothes and accessories how cool. hm... got money for new years ( yeh earlyt new years presents lol) and then also got perfume so cyute it a small bottle and got a mp3 yeh i noe it's kinda late to get one at this time of the year where eveyr body got there like 6 months ago meh hu cares... then later went to a christmas party. is alright half the food wasn't edible at all ahahhahahah yeps i noe that is true.. then went home and had salmon raw with wasabi yay sooo nice ... but no sushi... :( 26/12 whole family going to mandurah to show my cousin around. she is only staying at perth for 15 dais kinda sux..... grandma stays for 3 months. me and grandma stay at home coz she say she getting old and she doesn't wanta move around so much. Then later go to another christmas party yay so many partys.. busy 3 days then 27/12 have a christmas party at my aunties house a belated xmas party heheheh. then on 28/12 it is my verii verii verii special fwends birthday (ollie) sux i cannot celebrate with her i have to work that day . but ollie promise i will celebrate your birthday belated if is alright with you?? hope so lor ehehhehehehehe.... hm........

oh yeh i was meant to say as well i wishj everyone a belated christmas ....

signing off

kayan

it's my birthday today kekeke

2005-11-27T01:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys as you can tell by my blog title it's my birthday
i have the best time eva with my best fwends we all went shopping to buy shoe... OMG ollie i love your shoes to bits lol... i brought make up ok i sound weird but to be honest i neva neva neva eva where eye liner and eye shadow... i guess thats just me anyaways.. went to ice and look at some foundation and cosmetics and the mel told me to try and put on the eye shadow i told her i suck at putting it on so she help man do i look good with green lol.... she also help me put on eye liner lol wah lou i like it so much ahahaha so i brought it.

lets see.... ollie brought shoes, french nails and mascara, mel brought christmas cards and lye shiun...... uh... i don't think she brought anything.. me lol i think i spent the most... i brought a lip gloss for sista and one of those cyute blue bear key ring with a bell for bro... then went and brought chocolate for teachers (hehehe see i nice person wellac tually not relli i onli brought to the teachers i liked lol) then later went and brought some eye liner and eye shadow...
i spent so much today man i think i should stay away from money for a few weeks so taht i have enough money to shop during christmas and the summer holidays hehehehe... i was able to find shoes for river cruise but i thought they were alright so i'm still finding shoes =P i only have 1 week and 1 day to find shoes otherwise i think i have to go bare foot ( is it allowed?)

ahahaha even though didn't have party and didn't recieve any money from any fwends i still manage to get alot of money by 2 ppl... i also beated my sista i got more than her and she invited like 15 ppl to her party... i guess it's my lucky day!

my ankle is getting betta i guess hopping works- shopping can heal your foot even though the doctor told me not to walk so much... i haven't felt any pains today------- no relli serious it's like pain free today lol.

OMG mel taht hat taht looks like old ppl hate yeh that one from jay jay that one is soooo kyute i think i should have brought it or maybe last last weeks one the pink one they were nice as welll boo hooo to late now i also like the cowboy one hehe... sux mi fone don't have taht bluetooth thing other wise be able to u

yay 2nd entry

2005-11-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

Hey guys

Today is not the best day of my life i'm so clumsy/(klutz) just because running to second base for TEE ball you can do ruin your ankle .. well yeh i did it... smart hey some how i just rolled onto my ankle and screwed some of my veins in my ankle but hey meh.... lol went to see the doctor at about 10 something pm ( yeh pretti rude but it;s the onli time my mum can take me) and he gave me these chinese medicine. It smells =S yup so the house kinda smell like the medicine.it's relli strong. The doctor told me that i'm not allowed to eat - duck, sour food, chilly food, ice and also egg. he also mentioned one more thing DON'T WALK SO MUCH ( hahahaha lol ) but i have to walk tomorrow...=S i'm going shopping with fwends ... for a girl even if she has injured her ankle she would still go shopping just to make her fwends happy =) but on Sunday i don't have to work yay hip hip hoooray out of how many weeks and months have i eva had a sunday morning off neva hehehehe....

this morning started off really bad.... We had Mz Di Guiseppi ( the world meanest loudest teacher) she was horrible just because our teacher was absent and she didn't wanta look after 2 classes at once so she shouted and screamed and try to threaten us lol.... but no one cared or payed any attention to her lol....ohohoh and past 12 is am rite... anywayz since mi time thingy is screw it's mi b'day tml which makes the 26th november

ok i have a headache at the moment so i write more about tommorow =P

toodles
lve kayan

Simple Life- Simple Love- Simple YOu

welcome

2005-11-25T11:36:00.000+08:00

hi welcome to my blog
this is about i dunno not first but more 9th blog out of how many lol. i have made alot of blogs during past years but not all of them are successful. Thats because stupid don't understand html. But with help with fwends this blog was able to be complete yay =)
well i guess there is only 13 more days till skl finish isn't that good or what? lol i got my economics test back and guess what got 82% in the test i guess alright but i tried which is good hehehe. This week for me at skl is test/assignment free week how nice are the teachers??
Omg i watch super size me in english class yesterday and today. How disgusting is it to have 3 meals a day only Mac Donalds? Thats really bad that is why American people are so FAT ( sorri no offence). lol they guy that was the experiment of this show went around america and ask people what "calories" mean...... guess what......... No one was able to answer the question so that makes America not the only "Fattest country but also the Stupidest Country" heheheh ( i don't mean any harm but i got it off the video" " Mac Donald, Mac Donald , Kentucky Fried Chicken and a Pizza Hut" hehehe openeing music theme soooooooooo catchy. It's kind of sick watching all that fat going into your body you get kinda sick after watching it.
*sigh* each day the weather here is getting hotter and hotter. THere ARE SO MANY annoying fly's - is it because i smell *sniff sniff* nope i smell like green tea hehe then it must be the STOOOOOOOPID skl. Yay river cruise keep comming closser and closer Saturay going shopping for shoooes yupyup shooooes... big problem hard to find hehehehe%2